Vicky Pattison Opens Up About Lonely Time After Winning I’m A Celeb And Drinking Everyday

"I was convinced that people would realise I wasn’t anything special and it would all be taken away."

Vicky Pattison has opened up about a hard time she faced after winning I’m A Celebrity Get Me Out Of Here in 2015.

The reality star said she was drinking every day after the win and worried she might lose everything she had.

Speaking to The Sun on Sunday she said, “I had everything I ever wanted. The public liked us, I’d left behind Geordie Shore and I had this new shiny career. But I was convinced that people would realise I wasn’t anything special and it would all be taken away.

“I drank pretty much every day. I would have about ten drinks a day. Wine, spirits, anything really. I begged for days off work. Then I’d feel even lonelier and drink more.

 

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“I was turning up late for jobs. I don’t think I ever turned up drunk, I always slept, but I was not in a fit state to work. When you’re doing talk shows you want to be witty and warm, bright-eyed and bushy-tailed, not still shaking off the lethargy of five gin and tonics.

“Once in a while you can put it down to the Geordie charm but, consistently, it’s just unprofessional. That’s what I was becoming. I was jeopardising everything I’d ever wanted and worked for. I don’t know many people who get mortal drunk and are still the nicest people in the world.

“You’re always sloppy or aggressive. I became a gross amalgamation of all of those when I was drunk. So I’d deal with a hangover and that shame. And what gets rid of that? Having a drink.”

 

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Vicky’s father suffered from alcoholism for years and the star said she is determined not to go down the same path.

“I absolutely adore my dad, it would be so easy for me to be like him. I’m not absolutely convinced I’m not. I don’t see myself as an alcoholic because I work really hard to not follow the same behaviours and habits as him.

“I want to be this version of myself that I am today, because the alternative isn’t worth thinking about. I can have a couple of glasses of wine and be the life and soul of the party but if I fall over there is no off switch.

“I want more out of life than what my dad has had; a happy marriage, a good relationship with my kids, I want to be successful. I hated myself back then. I work very hard to not become that person,” she explained.

 

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Speaking of the turning point that made her take charge of her life, Vicky recalls her management having a word, “They sat me down and said, ‘You’ve got everything you’ve ever wanted and everything you’ve worked for and it feels like you’re still really unhappy’.

“And I was. So that’s when I stepped up my therapy. Now I’m in such a happy place, I feel really sorry for that girl.”

 

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We are glad to see Vicky in a better place. She has been in such a good place, in fact, that she is releasing a book titled, Vicky Pattison The Secret to Happy.

Speaking about her nerves for its release on Instagram she wrote, “…with less than a week to go til publication I’m terrified. I poured my heart & soul into this book- every page including truths about myself that I hadn’t anticipated telling anyone- let alone everyone. But I realised a while ago- that the things I’ve gone through, the loss, the heartbreak, grief- they’ve made me who I am- and I’m by no means who i want to be eventually or where I want to end up but I am stronger, a little bit wiser, a lot happier and altogether a bit of a better person…”

 

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