Olly Murs Reveals He Is Still “Struggling” Six Months On From The Death Of His Friend, Caroline Flack

"There’s a massive hole in my life without Caz in it."

In a recent interview Olly Murs opened up about the death of his friend and colleague, Caroline Flack who tragically took her own life six months ago at the age of 40.

Both Olly and Caroline worked together, hosting The Xtra Factor for one series, a spin-off of The X Factor back in 2007. For one of his tours Olly asked his friends to write something about him, and Caroline wrote about the time they spent working together on the show.

“She wrote this. She said, ‘When I met Olly for the first time I felt like I’d met my soulmate. It was just like meeting someone I’d known all my life.”

“I’ve never laughed as much as I did in 2007 when we first hosted The Xtra Factor and that experience will always stay with me forever.’”


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At the time, their on screen chemistry sparked rumours that they were a couple, but Olly shared that they were more like brother and sister;

“We just had a special chemistry. People thought we were together. We weren’t together. We never, ever got together. We never ever pulled each other, we never did.”

“We had fights. We had great moments together. We argued. We had everything. We were just always like brother and sister. I don’t know, it was a weird friendship.”

“I’ve never experienced that level of friendship before. We had a chemistry and connection.”


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Olly has said that although he and Caroline didn’t text every day, they were close and he revealed that there is a massive hole in his life since her tragic death earlier this year; “For Caz to not be here any more, it’s hard. It’s difficult. It doesn’t get easy but I’m just fortunate I have so many great memories with her and have so many amazing times with her that I can look back on.”

“And I’m very fortunate a lot of it is documented and a lot of it is on TV.”

“When you do lose someone that you care about and you love, I’m still struggling. It still hurts every day thinking about what she must have gone through.”

“When you’re grieving you’re just finding things. I had voice notes from Caroline for years. I had a three-year WhatsApp conversation and somehow it had been deleted.”

“I’d only got the last year of our conversation and I was going through my phone looking for voice notes just wanting to hear her voice again, hear her conversation, just searching for things.”


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Olly went on to say that it’s the small, everyday things he misses the most; “I just miss those moments of crazy stories where we’d WhatsApp or ring each other and have the most random conversations about the most random things. I’m going to miss that forever.”

“I know that goodbyes are not forever. I know I’ll see her again at some point so I look forward to that day.”