‘I Absolutely Knew I Needed To Share This Story’ Chrissy Teigen On Why She Decided To Share Photos Of Her Pregnancy Loss

 

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Last month, Chrissy Teigen shared the heartbreaking news that she suffered a pregnancy loss. She and husband John Legend were expecting a baby boy, who they decided to call Jack. In the weeks since, Chrissy has penned an emotional essay on what has been going on since, and why she decided to share the intimate photos of herself in hospital.

In the essay, Chrissy wrote, “I had asked my mom and John to take pictures, no matter how uncomfortable it was. I explained to a very hesitant John that I needed them, and that I did NOT want to have to ever ask. That he just had to do it. He hated it. I could tell. It didn’t make sense to him at the time.

“But I knew I needed to know of this moment forever, the same way I needed to remember us kissing at the end of the aisle, the same way I needed to remember our tears of joy after Luna and Miles. And I absolutely knew I needed to share this story.

“I cannot express how little I care that you hate the photos. How little I care that it’s something you wouldn’t have done. I lived it, I chose to do it, and more than anything, these photos aren’t for anyone but the people who have lived this or are curious enough to wonder what something like this is like. These photos are only for the people who need them. The thoughts of others do not matter to me.”

Chrissy continued to say that she does have some regrets on sharing the photos, in that she feels bad that her fans felt sorry for her. “I feel bad our grief was so public because I made the joy so public. I was excited to share our news with the world. Stories leading up to this had been chronicled for all,” she wrote. “It’s hard to look at them now. I was so positive it would be okay. I feel bad that I made you all feel bad. I always will.”

Concluding her letter, Chrissy thanked everyone for their kind words and said that her children, Luna and Miles, will be told about baby Jack. “Jack will always be loved, explained to our kids as existing in the wind and trees and the butterflies they see. Thank you so much to every single person who has had us in their thoughts or gone as far as to send us your love and stories. We are so incredibly lucky.”

You can read Chrissy’s letter in full here.

• Chrissy Tiegen
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