Mandy Moore Says She Felt Like She Was ‘Drowning’ In Her Marriage To Ryan Adams

Mandy Moore says she felt like she was “drowning” in her marriage with ex-husband Ryan Adams.

Moore was one of several women who spoke to the The New York Times earlier this month about their relationships with the singer-songwriter, accusing him of abuse ranging from emotional manipulation to sexual misconduct.

In a new episode of comedian Marc Maron’s WTF podcast (recorded before the publication of The New York Times article), the This Is Us actress recalled “living her life for” Adams.

“I was living my life for him. It was an entirely unhealthy dynamic. I had no sense of self,” she said. “I felt like I was drowning. It was so untenable and unsustainable and it was so lonely. I was so sad. I was lonely with him.”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NAMH4I_-RXI

Moore told Maron that she found it impossible to sustain the relationship while working full time, and turned down bigger jobs for fear of how Adams would react if she was gone for long periods of time.

I would do things here or there, but it would become abundantly clear while I was working, things would completely fall apart at home. I couldn’t do my job because there was a constant stream of trying to pay attention to this person who needed me and wouldn’t let me do anything else.

After the publication of the New York Times article, Adams apologised to everyone he had hurt “however unintentionally”, but said that the reporting was “upsettingly inaccurate”.

Through his lawyer, he told the newspaper that Moore’s claims about their marriage were “completely inconsistent with his view of the relationship”.

Singer Phoebe Bridgers, who spoke to the Times along with Moore, has since released a statement calling out those who knew about Adams’ behaviour but did nothing about it:

https://twitter.com/phoebe_bridgers/status/1096969866018463744

“Ryan had a network too… None of them held him accountable,” she wrote. “They told him, but what they said or what they didn’t, that what he was doing was okay.”

Bridgers’ account has been backed up by Adams’ guitarist Todd Wisenbaker, who has implied that he attempted to confront the singer about the alleged abuse:

There were times when I chose to believe his insane version of the truth because it was easier than believing that anyone is capable of being this much of a monster… I’ve recently learned that everything he told me is a lie upon a lie upon a lie.

https://www.instagram.com/p/BuB6cGJhhmb/?utm_source=ig_embed

“I believe in forgiveness, redemption and recovery, but my life has become a complete shitstorm of someone else’s utter delusion… The women that spoke out are brave beyond words.”

• mandy moore