Megan Fox Opens Up About Pregnancy Loss And Abusive Relationship In New Book

TW: This article contains references to domestic abuse

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Megan Fox has written about her experience with pregnancy loss, and enduring abusive relationships in a new book.

The Transformers star released an intimate book of poetry yesterday, entitled Pretty Boys Are Poisonous.

In an Instagram post where she announced the collection, Megan wrote that the book was written “in an attempt to excise the illness that had taken root in me because of my silence.


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“I’ve spent my entire life keeping the secrets of men, my body aches from carrying the weight of their sins.

“My freedom lives in these pages,” she continued, “and I hope that my words can inspire others to take back their happiness and their identity by using their voice to illuminate what’s been buried, but not forgotten, in the darkness.”

Her fiancé Machine Gun Kelly (Colson Baker) commented under the post, “Proud of you”.

In an interview with Good Morning America, Megan reflected on the poems within the book that explore her pregnancy loss.

“It sent us on a very wild journey together and separately…trying to navigate, ‘What does this mean?’ and ‘Why did this happen?’,” she said, referring to Colson.


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“I had never been through anything like that in my life.”

Megan’s poetry offers a vulnerable insight into her emotions when she learned that she had lost a baby girl at 10 weeks.

In one poem, she writes, “maybe if you hadn’t…maybe if I had…”

In another, she writes, “I want to hold your hand/hear your laugh…but now/I have to/say goodbye.”

“I will pay any price…Tell me please/what is the ransom/for her soul?”


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Other poems in the deeply personal collection reflect on Megan’s experience in abusive relationships.

One piece titled Oxycodone and Tequila shares the physical abuse Megan was subjected to with a previous partner.

“You slip your fingers in my mouth and try to rip my face in two…you hit me again and again…You fall asleep on top of me so that I can’t call my family or the police.”

Another poem called Don’t Worry Darling is similarly candid and difficult to read.


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“Mornings after you would hurt me / I would wake up and make your coffee / Put on a sweatshirt so you wouldn’t have to look at the bruises you left…If anything I’m lucky, imagine all the girls who don’t get hurt, for laughing at another boy’s jokes, how ineffectual and undesirable they must feel.”

Megan has clearly been through some extremely painful experiences, and we applaud her for having the bravery to write about them.

The 176 page poetry collection, Pretty Boys Are Poisonous, can be bought here.